[ And finally it ended, Roze gasping for air, inhaling too fast and too deep, color leeching away from her face as as collapses sideways with a hoarse cry, covering her face with both hands. ]
I'm not nothing...I'm not nothing... [ She mumbles, voice muffled by the cover as she hides tears that she is ashamed of - only after staring wide and glassy-eyed between her fingers to see Squall, Seifer, Neku and the digimon and know they were there and real and very much alive.
That small piece of relief is not enough to hide her shame and she curls on her side, hands pressing up her face to dig fingers in her hair and pull painfully, punishing herself for her own weakness. She rolls back to her knees before anyone can say or do anything, turning away bearing her teeth in a feral snarl.
Get yourself under control, you piece of shit. Get up. GET ON YOUR FEET. You are nothing but no one else needs to know...
It takes her a few tries, but she manages to teeter back onto her own two feet alone, her back to the others, rising and falling as she forces herself to breath slower, hands scrubbing away dirt and tears. ]
Lady Roze? LADY ROZE! Damn you, unhand me! [ Musashi kicks at Squall hard once more before whapping him solidly in the knee with his shinai, eventually managing to get away and too Roze. He slows down when he's a few feet away, stopping short of reaching for her and eventually turning away to stare at the others awkwardly; a moment passes and the Kotemon heads towards the other digimon who had been caught in the field, helping them instead and giving Roze a moment to get herself under control.
A moment later Roze turns around, cocking a tired grin only swaying a little on her feet as she fights pain and exhaustion in favor of putting on a smile she didn't feel in the least. ]
WELL! That was some shit...don't wanna do that again!
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I'm not nothing...I'm not nothing... [ She mumbles, voice muffled by the cover as she hides tears that she is ashamed of - only after staring wide and glassy-eyed between her fingers to see Squall, Seifer, Neku and the digimon and know they were there and real and very much alive.
That small piece of relief is not enough to hide her shame and she curls on her side, hands pressing up her face to dig fingers in her hair and pull painfully, punishing herself for her own weakness. She rolls back to her knees before anyone can say or do anything, turning away bearing her teeth in a feral snarl.
Get yourself under control, you piece of shit. Get up. GET ON YOUR FEET. You are nothing but no one else needs to know...
It takes her a few tries, but she manages to teeter back onto her own two feet alone, her back to the others, rising and falling as she forces herself to breath slower, hands scrubbing away dirt and tears. ]
Lady Roze? LADY ROZE! Damn you, unhand me! [ Musashi kicks at Squall hard once more before whapping him solidly in the knee with his shinai, eventually managing to get away and too Roze. He slows down when he's a few feet away, stopping short of reaching for her and eventually turning away to stare at the others awkwardly; a moment passes and the Kotemon heads towards the other digimon who had been caught in the field, helping them instead and giving Roze a moment to get herself under control.
A moment later Roze turns around, cocking a tired grin only swaying a little on her feet as she fights pain and exhaustion in favor of putting on a smile she didn't feel in the least. ]
WELL! That was some shit...don't wanna do that again!